Friday, July 13, 2012

Sisters Obsessed With White Skin



A few weeks ago, I went to saw a movie with my friend 'Nanita Singh'. One of the pre movie advertisements about a fairness product 'Clean and Dry Intimate Wash' angered and agitated her so much so that she took her cell phone out and lamented on her facebook status, "why each and every advertisement nowadays is about fairness products? Clean and dry has heightened the apartheid by launching their product Intimate Wash. FANTASTIC. Do they really want us to bleach our intimate areas into fairness? SICK" sarcastically.

The world could now welcome another product that makes people with brown skin feel bad about their bodies, invest in one more way to alter them. To someone like me, born and raised in India, encountering an American jab on anything Pakistani, surrounded by almost everything Chineese, offers some tantalising prospects nurtured by the fires of nationalism that burn on either side of these borders that British left us. There is the urge to gloat, to spout out, "no, no this would never happen in India" or smugly say, "well you know, this is not our problem", alluding ofcourse to the lack of superficiality, superior ethics, and caste-based equality India is so popular for.

While an American might fall for such a fable, unable to distinguish fabrications in the sea of brown, that is South Asia in the condensed western imagination, neither Indians nor Pakistanis can buy the lie. With our hostile histories, Indians and Pakistanis may disagree on borders and water treaties and terror suspects; but in denying our brownness and dreaming of whiteness, we r united. Indeed, 'Clean and Dry Intimate Wash' could not be advertised in India and Pakistan as freely as it is being hawked in countries with western culture, but there would, undoubtedly, be a profitable market for it in both these countries. The reasons for its popularity may be different, vestiges of caste and Aryan association among Indians; the desire to locate lineage in Arab conquerors in Pakistan. But even with missiles pointed and check points manned, the most fervent Hindu nationalist and the most martial Pakistani colonel can agree that whatever else happens, 'THE BRIDE MUST BE FAIR'.

While argument can be established, contradictions remain. It was after all, a fetal India and Pakistan who won the 20th century's most resounding  victory against white colonialism, showed down the British, sent them packing, and put full stop on the saga of the British Empire. Today, it is India that can mock by example all those who believed that democracy belonged only to the white, the rich or the elite; and it is contemporary Pakistan wracked with casualties and plagued by terrorism, that is standing upto the imperialist intrusions of the United States. If we looked at those portions of the story alone, we could never guess that our societies with their robust anti-imperialist genealogies could indulge in the chemical absurdity of bleaching ourselves white.

The conundrums, shared by Indians and Pakistanis could be less annoying perhaps if their burdens were equally applied to all Indian and Pakistani citizens. However, in the subcontinent, the self loathing of the people with fairer skins have deemed that this is not to be so; from 'Clean and Dry' in India to 'Tibet Snow' in Pakistan to 'Fair and Lovely' everywhere, the burden of escaping our burnished realities has been placed squarely on the shoulders of people with darker brownish skins. And because they must pretend that they and all their parts were born rather than bleached white, this war against brown is waged largely in secret.

In beauty parlors and bathrooms from Kolkata to Krachi, brown men and women, both Hindu and Muslim, the very poor and the newly rich, pay the price of a socially nursed delusion of whiteness, its imagined goodness, and its unquestioned purity. And as is the tradition, some are more slyly marketed than the others. The people who made the commercials for these fairness products, feigns innocence and denies complicity, it is all 'OVER-REACTION' in their words.

In our yet unconcluded first century of existence, India and Pakistan have spent a lot of time arguing our differences, varying interests, old wounds and new tricks, unwarranted armed overtures and all the tragic rest. On the issue of race it seems, our challenge on either side of the border is the same; the task of accepting without shame or subterfuge our pigmented reality; ending our quest for whiteness, so that we can finally become brown, and can finally say 'WE ARE PROUD TO BE BROWN'.


Thursday, June 7, 2012

I Fell In Love With You




Somewhere in d middle of those conversations
I fell in love with you!

Being from strangers to friends
Then from gossips to sharing secrets
Don't know when I started to like you!

From those arguments to fights
From those likes to dislikes
From laughs to cries
I did share many beautiful moments with you

Somewhere in the middle of those conversations
I fell in love with you!

Don't know how the time passed
For hours our conversations used to last
And today it has been ages we talked

Now you have your guy by your side
Tomorrow someone else gonna be your groom

So today I wanna tell you
This was something I did 'hide'
Yeah! somewhere in the middle of those conversations
I fell in love with you!

And for the rest of my life
I will cherish my relation with you
And I will always love you!

This one is dedicated to the love of my life, in a hope she finds her way back into my life. Also this is for all the people who are missing their loved ones and waiting for them to come back into their lives.


Thursday, April 12, 2012

Pain !





I keep thinking of different ways
How to express my love for her.
My heart beats for her
But she is unaware about it.

My God knows my pain
She is stranger to it.

I always wish, keep telling my heart
You love her, dye yourself in her colors
She will come to you, love you back
Alas! She doesn't understand my feelings for her.

My God knows my pain
She is stranger to it.

Always at a distance of step or two from her
Always she is in my heart frame
I have walked for centuries, towards her
The distance between us is still the same.

My God knows my pain,
She is stranger to it.

She is in my thoughts.
She is all around me.
I am so close to her.
Yet! She is distant to me.

My God knows my pain,
She is stranger to it.

How do I make you read my eyes?
How do I express my love for you?
How do I make you feel my heart beat?
How do I tell you what I feel for you?

My God knows my pain,
She is stranger to it.

Day and night, I keep watching her photo.
Day and night, I worship her like Goddess.

My God knows my pain,
She is stranger to it.

Oh God! Give christmas present to the orphaned heart of mine.
Oh God! Give back my Juliet to the Romeo me.

My God knows my pain,
She is stranger to it.

This one is dedicated to the girl with the most beautiful pair of eyes I have ever seen. I hope someday she will understand my love for her and come back to me.

Also, this is for all those persons, whose partners / friends are mad at them or are not with them, in a hope that they will be together again.

NOTE : The line 'My God knows my pain, She is stranger to it.' has been taken from the punjabi song 'mera peer jaane meri peedh, o jaane naa.' I was so much moved by this song, that i decided to incorporate its title line into this poem.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Oh My Love





Oh my love!
My eyes are filled with tears, whenever I think of you.
My heart hurts, when it don't finds you around.

Oh my love!
Please tell me, how shall I live without you?
Please show me, the path of living without you.

Oh my love!
If I could, I would have stopped loving you, but I am helpless.
If there was someone else like you, I would not have ruined myself.

Oh my love!
My heart is calling your name and my eyes are waitin to see you again.
My lips met your name and my soul left me in search of yours.

Oh my love!
Why you broke my heart, with that loud thud?
Why you took away my life, when I searched for you all my life?

Oh my love!
Firstly God got mad at me, and now you are angry with me.
I am lost without you, come back and give meaning to my life.

Oh my love!
Keeping my hand on my heart, I have cried away my nights for you.
Although we are distant from each other, but our hearts will never get separated.

Oh my love!
I'll wait for you, till the very end.
I am incomplete without you.

Oh my love!
I can't think of anyone other than you.
I am hopelessly in love with you.

This one is for the love of my life, I hope she finds her way back soon.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Miss You





Oh my love! Each and every moment, I think of you.
Even the thought of living without you, kills me.
My heart is calling your name again and again.
I am missing you more and more without with every breath.

When you are with me, I am not able to tell, how much I love.
And when you are not here, I just want to tell you, I love you.
Do you feel the same way for me?
I am missing you more and more without with every breath.

What have you done to me?
Why I keep thinking about you?
I am missing you very much.

Whenever my lips move, I call your name.
My heart belongs to you and you alone.
Living without is not an option.
I am missing you like hell.

You are present in each and every thought.
You have become the centre of my life.
You are being missed by me.

What should I do?
How should I do?
What have I done?
Atleast, let me miss you.

Life seems to be a curse without you in it.
Please come back to me, I love you.
I am missing you more and more without with every breath.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

You Are My Love !





I feel your presence everywhere around me.
You are present in my heart and my mind.
You are my life, you are my love.

You are my dream.
You are my entangled answer.
You are same as me.
You are my life.
You are my love.

You are the shore to the stream of my heart.
You are the answer to my non stop desires.
You are my life, you are my love.

You are the moon, I am your scar.
You are the water for the desert of my heart.
You are my life, you are my love.

Why don't you believe I am all yours?
What shortcomings are there in my love?
Why are you not being one with me?
You are my life, you are my love.

You are my reason to look forward.
You are my reason to live.
You are the reason to be me.
You are my life, you are my love.

This one is dedicated to the only Nonolicious person in my life, to whom I love very much. Also, this is for all the persons who are in love and who want to express their love to the loved ones.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Bond Between Hearts





The bond between hearts is shaping up.
It won't fade away in times to come.
The bond between hearts never ever break.
I will steal away all tears the from your eyes.

Although I don't know you from long ago.
The bond between our hearts is too strong.
I will steal away all tears the from your eyes.

I can sense your restlessness and loneliness.
You must not forget, I am always with you.
The bond between our hearts is too strong.
I will steal away all tears the from your eyes.

I will make the world a paradise for you.
You don't have to be sad, when I am with you.
The bond between our hearts is too strong.
I will steal away all tears the from your eyes.

I will decorate your eyes with sweet dreams.
The bond between our hearts is too strong.
I will steal away all tears the from your eyes.

When the sadness departs, happiness smiles and spreads its charm.
I can't see you crying like this, please smile for me.
The bond between our hearts is too strong.
I will steal away all tears the from your eyes.

In moments of sadness, I will make you smile.
The bond between our hearts is too strong.
I will steal away all tears the from your eyes.

Often I have told my loved ones, that they don't have to bear the burden of sorrows alone, I am always there to take away the burden of sadness from their lives. I wish all the happiness their lives.

This one is dedicated to the only Nitstious person I have known so far. Also this is for all the persons who want to spread a shinning smile on the faces of their loved ones and friends.