Why I Want You In My Life

My life has been a roller coaster ride with all the drama and the love and ofcourse with lots of hugs and kisses. And these hugs and kisses, made you go nuts and jealous and also made you question me a lot of times as to 'why it is just you that I want for a life partner?' Here are a few reasons as to why I want you in my life, and as to why I made you my life :

• To PROTECT YOU, when you are scared.

• To Stay Up all night with you, when you are sick.

• So that I can treat you like, you are all that REALLY MATTERS TO ME.

• To ask you WHAT'S WRONG, when you are all quiet and glum.

• To tell you that you are MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON, whenever I see you at your worst. Actually, no matter how you look, you are and you will be the most beautiful person for me.

• To give you ALL THE HAPPINESS in the world.

• So that I can HOLD YOUR HAND, when you grab mine, and play with your fingers.

• To tease you back, when you tease me, and MAKE YOU LAUGH.

• So that I can REASSURE YOU that everything is okay, when you don't answer for a long time. Frankly speaking, it kills me from inside when you don't answer.

• So that when I see you start crying, I can HOLD YOU and hug you tightly and tell you that you are my world, without even saying a single word.

• So that whenever you look at me with doubt, I can BACK MYSELF UP and tell you that I am yours and only YOURS.

• To keep your secrets SAFE AND UNTOLD, when you tell them to me.

• To make you believe that I LOVE YOU, more than you can ever understand, and tell you that I know YOU LOVE ME, more than I can ever understand.

• To STAY ON PHONE WITH YOU, even if you are not saying anything.

• So that when you are trying to act all tough, by trying to fight with me and curse me, I can kiss you and tell you that I LOVE YOU.

• So that I can KISS YOU, when you stare at my mouth.

• So that I can be careful of not talking about other girls, when YOU ARE AROUND ME.

• So that when you are mad at me, I can HUG YOU TIGHT and don't let go.

• So that I can GRAB YOU and don't let you go, when you push me or hit me like I am a dummy, cause you think you are stronger than I am.

• So that I can make you laugh by BUMPING BACK into you, when you bump into me.

• Because I believe that you want me to TALK TO YOU, when you say you are ok, but you are actually not.

• So that I LET YOU KEEP my favorite shirt and let you sleep with it, when you insist on doing so.

• To LOOK BACK into your eyes, when you look at me in my eyes, and not looking away until you do.

• To CALL YOU at 12:00 am on your birthday, to wish you happy birthday and tell you that I love you and that I am glad to have you in my life.

• So that when you run upto me crying, I can HUG YOU and hold you tight and reassure you that everything is going to be okay and that I am always with you and that I will always love you.

• So that I can watch your favorite movie WITH YOU or your favorite show, even if I think they are stupid.

• To let you WEAR MY CLOTHES.

• To HANG OUT WITH YOU, when you are bored and sad.

• So that when I see you walking away, I can sneak up from behind and HUG YOUR WAIST.

• So that I can KISS YOU and HUG YOU in the pouring rain.

• So that I can tell you and make you believe that YOU ARE MOST IMPORTANT person for me in the entire universe.

• To give you all MY ATTENTION, when you are ignoring me.

• To PULL YOU BACK, when you pull yourself away.

• So that I can tell you, that I know you and even though you say its all over, you still want me to be yours.

• So that I can PROMISE YOU TO BE YOURS for now and for always.

Life is too short to be wasted in quarrels and fights. And I hope each and everyone of you reading this will understand it, and get back to your love to love them more and more by every passing moment.

Why I Love You

Many a times, you have asked me as to 'why I love you?' and everytime I was like 'umm', 'aaa', 'mmm', frankly telling, I was completely blank then and had no answer. But being away from you, made me realize as to 'why I love you' and 'why you are the most important person to me in the entire world. Read on :

• Your smile brightens up the most dullest of my days. Not to forget, you have the most beautiful hair, I love their smell and texture. I am totally mesmerised by those big eyes of yours and your smile has me bamboozled. And when you hug me, its like time has come to a standstill and each and every problem has evaporated.

• You are the most beautiful person, for me. You look beautiful without any make-up, just the way you are. Nothing in the world is more tempting to me, than holding your sweet and bubbly face in my hands, looking deep into your eyes, admiring you and telling you how much I love you.

• I love what I become, when I am with you. You have the most positive and greatest impact on my life and my being. You are an indispensable part of my life. When I am with you, I am the best I can ever be, all thanks to you.

• You complete me. Our being together is the most wholesome and lovable thing that I can ever imagine. 

• You are my friend, companion, confidante, love and life. You are everything and anything that I could ever ask for. You are the most wonderful and amazing person that I have ever met.

And the list goes on and on and on. In the end, all I want to say is 'I LOVE YOU'.

Why I Miss You

Last time we talked, you asked me, as to why I miss you so much even now, and as to why I can't move on. At that time I was not able to tell you why I miss you, so here I am confessing the reasons as to why I miss you so much. Read on :

• When I'm all alone, sick or lost, I just need you to be with me, to hold me in your arms and make me feel ALIVE again.

• I miss waking up in the morning and finding your, 'Good Morning Love!' in my inbox.

• Also I miss waking up early in the morning to listen to your sweet and lovely voice saying, 'Uth Gaya Mera SHONA BABY . . ? ? ?'.

• I miss those small small fights, and saying, 'I am not gonna talk to you ever.' And still, checking my mobile phone again and again, to see if you have called me or messaged me.

• I miss waking up suddenly in the middle of the night and calling you, to talk to you till the break of the dawn.

• I miss those times, when I used to call you and it said, 'The user is busy with another call, please stay on line or call again later..!!!'.

• You know I used to get so very much frustrated and infuriated at those times, and also at the same time I used to feel so scared and insecure, that I might loose you. I miss you.

• I miss all those sweet memories and saying, Sorry Shona!!', after a fight. And then fighting again over whose mistake it was.

• I miss reading your cute cute texts and smiling idiotically and getting caught by friends and family.

• I miss seeing your face and becoming happy without any reason.

• I miss imagining my future life with you, hugging you, cuddling with you, talking to you, and spending my time and life with you.

And the list goes on and on. In the end all I want to say is, 'I MISS YOU and I LOVE YOU'.

Nowadays, people often say love hurts, love is fake, its unreal and what not. But, they haven't experienced what love is and are lost in a world of loneliness and selfishness. Love is just awesome, extra ordinary and brilliant. It makes you feel as if you are the most important person in the entire universe and that you are the entire universe for someone. So, enjoy being in love.

Innocent Questions

She was my destination

She was my path

Why then am I alone?

She came in with lots of love

Decided to stay in heart for always

Why then she walked away?

Heart questions why am I deserted

People were her worshipers

Was God her follower too?

For the first time, tried my hand on a nonnet, I hope it will be liked.

This one is for all the persons who want to question their loved ones as to why they are not in their lives anymore and why God has taken them away.

Big Fat Indian Wedding

They arrive, swathed in silk and smiles. And fish out a gold embossed thick, red card barely half a pleasantry later. Sometimes they whip out a pen and ask for full names. Uncertain smiles are exchanged, and card duly appreciated, while I try my level best to find out who or what the girl or the boy does, or where or she lives. And mom and dad pretend to admire the thick booklet of a card. Have these people considered that the card, which must have cost a bomb, is after all just informatory and not the work of art it is pretending to be and will be relegated to 'raddi' the very next day? I bet not.

Entreaties of 'You have to come!' and the earnest promise 'Of course, of course!' are exchanged before they leave and I wonder aloud, "How in the world am I gonna survive another get together with so many unknown people who are supposed to be my relatives?"

Mom too has her brow wrinkled, "I think I need to get a few dresses ready for the occasion. Are your dresses in order?" She tried to pass on the choice of attending the occasion on me but I back off quickly saying I will have to see if it fits in my schedule. So the moot question is, should I go? Like the idiot who never learns, bowled over by the anxious entreaties, I decide in favour.

Dressed in unfamiliar finery, one reaches the venue after a long traffic jam compounded by 'baraatis' moving at a speed calculated to shame a tortoise! The singer bells out the old and new songs with abundant panache and the dancing baraatis give intruding cars dirty looks, 'what business do cars have on road when they are there?'

Bypassing them is tough, but clever maneuvering sees us through and we find ourselves inside. The rest is a cake walk. Hand over the precious 'lifafa' to somebody keeping a meticulous list of gifts and walk over guiltlessly to the food side. Meeting or greeting the family? They have already bid us a hurried 'Namastey' before rushing off to tend to more urgent things than the invited guests. Wishing the new couple? The bride hasn't arrived from the parlour yet and the groom is still surrounded by his drunken dancing friends. Food seems to be the only logical solution and we get over the awkwardness of helping ourselves by socially asking some other  guests whether they have eaten. And leading the way to the most crowded part of the place.

Pandemonium prevails here as the service is slow and demand huge. Despite the mile long table and the cuisines on it, its a minor achievement getting a hot roti on your plate and getting out of the mad rush without a kid dropping an ice cream or a dollop of greasy daal on ur dress. The only thing you want by that time is to get out of the place.

Another tussle with the traffic and we are home! But if you think that's the end of your trouble, you have not accounted for the queasiness of the next morning. And cursing the green chutney, the curd - or was it the kulfi?

I remember nostalgically the days when society didn't judge you from the amount you blew on a wedding. Or how many guests you invited. The fresh fragrance of the marigold bedecked doorways and sandalwood adorned brides still linger in the memory, so far removed from the starchy orchids or the beauty out of cookie cutter parlours.

I must be getting really old or rather classical, for I also remember happiness, and not makeup lighting faces around me, the simple sitdown meals served lovingly on huge 'thaals' and people actually knowing their invitees!

Self Realization

After a while I learnt the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. 

I learnt that love doesn't mean leaning, and company doesnt mean security.

It dawned upon me that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises.

I began accepting my defeats with my head up and my eyes open, with the grace of an adult, and not the grief of a child.

I learnt to build all my roads on today because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans.

After a while I learnt that even sunshine burns if you get too much of it.

So plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you will learn that you really are strong, and you really do have worth BEING YOURSELF.

NOTE : Its edited version (edited by me ofcourse) of the original article I read somewhere online.

Rising Petrol Prices And Dooming Rupee

With the rupee in decline, if not a free fall yet, and the petrol prices touching new skies, the political fallout is severe for both the ruling United Progressive Alliance (progressive, only in terms of corruption and scams, not in terms of development and prosperity) and the Opposition, as inflation touches new highs and cannot be easily bridled.

With the increased demand of petroleum products in the country, drop of rupee in comparison to dollar and the international price hike in the petroleum prices, the petrol prices are bound to rise. But, also our politicos should bring upon austerity on themselves and learn a lesson from the doomed economy of Zimbabwe, and stop coming up with flawed economic policies, which rob the public on the name of the taxes, instead of generating any substantial capital. Also, media hungry attention seeking people like Anna Hazare and Baba Ramdev, should put a stop to their nation-wide strikes and realize that their strikes cause a loss of around a thousand crore rupees a day to the country's economy.

Doomsayers predict recession, but the authorities have been hoping to ride the tiger and do not think that the economy is fragile, though it is. The regional parties ruling a number of States, in as much financial distress as the Centre, want their pound of flesh - huge funds from the Union treasury to balance their books. If rotten politicians like Mamta Banerjee, would stop threatening government on the name of withdrawing their support from the coalition, then maybe government will be able to work and function properly.

The rupee, as it is feared, could drop to 60 for a US dollar (the international reserve currency in which trade and balance of payments are measured) by the end of the second quarter of the current financial year. The Reserve Bank of India, may have sold 20 billion dollars and other banks might have pumped another 500 million dollars into the market, but is that enough? Have the foreign remittances, which used to be 50 billion dollars a year, declined or are the now insufficient, as the needs are manifold? Are the foreign exchange reserves of nearly 300 billion dollars inadequate?

The government claims that the Indian economic growth has been 7 percent in the bygone financial year, even though the stock markets and the commodity markets are in decline. Also, Banks and Life Insurance investments in stocks do not prop up the markets anymore. Sad, eh?

At the end of the budget session, the Government announced an increase of petrol price by `6 per litre, but oil companies are still demanding to increase diesel prices by `5 per litre. Even though the Central and the State taxes make upto 30 percent of the petrol price, the political parties to the left, right and  centre have found this issue to criticize the Government, instead of thanking it for the revenue generated. Dirty politics.

Capital inflows in to India have declined in the absence of economic reforms like permission to foreign investment in multi brand retail trade. The other factor is that a number of power plants are not generating electricity at their full capacity in the absence of availability of fuel. There is no solution for the power plants remaining idle, yet on paper, infrastructure has already been built, but will remain unused.

The ruling party and the opposition are holding executive meets every now and then, but the focus is not on crucial issues like that of petrol price, or that of decline of rupee, instead it is candidature of the presidential elections. The politicos have unwittingly sent out a message that, they make merry whenever they are in power and use the stick against the public, and are ignoring the aspirations of the rising young people of the country, who hate the fake idealism of the yore.

If given opportunity, I would like to ask :

• The Members Of The Parliament - Do you consider yourselves cartoonists, that you people are discussing cartoons printed in textbooks during the sessions of the parliament?
• Mamata Banerjee - Is your hunger for power so much so that, that you won't let the Union Government function properly for the sake of your vote bank in Kolkata?
• Narendra Modi - How can you consider yourself the face of good politics and development, when you ordered the massacre and the riots and your own hands are tainted by the blood of the innocents?
• Supreme Court Of India - Why is A Raja granted bail and where is the money he gobbled? Why is Kalmadi roaming freely after being plotting such big scams? Why hasn't the money from any of the scams been recovered? Is our law so weak that it cannot punish the culprits and give people what is rightly theirs?
• Manmohan Singh - If you want to act like a puppet in the hands of the Congress Supremo, Sonia Gandhi, and neglect your duties as the Prime Minister, then why don't you join a circus and not ruin the country?
• Lal Krishna Advani - When will you stop dividing people on the basis of the religion and let secularism prevail in the country?
• Rahul Gandhi - How can you call yourself the young face of Indian politics, at an age of 42, when all you do is nothing and fly off to foreign lands every now and then?
• V K Singh - Why you always blame defense ministry for your own flaws? Are you not a man enough to stand for your own mistakes?
• Anna Hazare - When will you stop fooling the innocent public on the name of the Lokpal Bill and do something good for the country, instead of those BANDHS that are destroying the country?
• Baba Ramdev - Is your circus on TV not giving you enough attention and media coverage that you have started fooling around with other attention seeking hogs on the name of anti corruption?
• Pranab Mukherjee - Why didn'[t you resigned soon? And while you were in power, why didn't you did something regarding the economy of the country, instead of imposing those ridiculous taxes on public?
• Vinod Rai (CAG, India) - When will you stop playing tennis and actually start doing your job?
• TKA Nair (Advisor to PM) - Will you advise something worth and real good to the PM?
• Duvvuri Subbarao (RBI Governor) - When will you take some substantial steps for stopping the downfall of rupee?

I conclude, with the hope that all these people will answer these questions to the people of India, and that too, before its too late.